people used to tell me that i put unnecessary burden on myself. and i know i still do. it's like that saying which goes if you want things done right, do it yourself. sometimes i wish that person doing it herself didn't have to be me. i wish people were relying on someone else, which isn't exactly impossible. what's more impossible is wishing that I could let go and trust others to do it right. and it is this lack of trust on others that leads to the pilling of burden.

it must be nice to be able to go to sleep early knowing that you won't have to worry. is that why nobody bothers asking anymore?