"truth is, everyone's going to hurt you.

you just have to find the ones worth suffering for."

-Bob Marley.

every morning

by amazing artist, maco.

stolen off here. :)

i knew i should have just said thank you for making me stronger and left it at that.

cling

left and leaving

today, it was obvious to me that i'm still vulnerable to pangs of pain. the time taken to recover from those pangs are perhaps an indicator of my emotional state. i do feel myself getting better though it's still not enough.
i've already spent too much time hurting.

sweat it out tomorrow morning? mmm... if i can wake up, that is.

also today, my necklace with this sparrow pendant broke. and so the little silver sparrow broke free of its chains.

come monday, i'm determined for 4 months of hard work.

then i get to leave,

a little while at least.

much like my little sparrow :)

unpretentious nights

today on my side of the world, we walked in a random cafe. the one we drove all the way there for in the jam was closed. i ordered hot chocolate and we talked.

we left for a nice restaurant where i ordered another cup of hot chocolate. we had our stomachs filled to the brim and we continued talking.

our movie plans did not work out. in fact, today was on the verge of not working out at all. fortunately, it did.

i'm so glad it did.

none of our conversations tonight were particularly insightful or memorable, but it just felt right. it's not everyday that i would get to spend the night with two people i feel so at home with.

i just know that i'm going to miss days like this.

the next time all of us would be in one place would probably be in a messenger conversation. thank the geeks for the technology but it won't be exactly the same.

also on my side of the world tonight, technology brought us together although we were located hardly 10 minutes away from each other. who needs a playlist when they can leech off and sing along to their friend's music through webcam?

hopefully, my plans to spend the end of this year getting lost in another part of this world works out. i can't wait! fingers crossed. :)

my final papers did not go too well. first time in my two years at college that i have been so unsure about my essay answers for a final exam.

i guess it is too easy to get caught up in the stressful yet mundane cycle of due dates and exams. as a result, the energy and drive to learn with childlike wonder extinguishes. rekindling that lost part of self is thus, my work in progress.

for now, i have two weeks to breathe. and i'm in love with this flurry of activity. i have awesome friends to be thankful for. friends that pull me into a comfort zone of lowered defenses. if happiness is not a place to stay, at least my visits are getting longer.

tonight, i would be in the arms of a warm blanket and in the company of a good book until sleep calls.

it's all good.

goodnight world :)

comfort zone

i can truly be me.

today, i can give myself a pat on the back.

but i don't know how long it will last.

the realist in me makes sure i don't forget the fact that i'm not as strong as i think.

just so that if i crumble and disintegrate again, i'll be more prepared.

one step at a time.

forward steps, that's all i'm asking for.