it's tempting to fall. it's just so easy to walk through open doors. perhaps there's bait on the other end or some kind of force urging on from behind. you've been there. days like this, mind is blank and heavy as thought there's a ton of invisible stacked bricks exerting downward pressure. wish everything was simpler. but it isn't and it'll never be. choices, one of which i wish i could reverse and eliminate. it was never anything special to you. i'm just another girl. among a sea of other girls. guess i was foolish to believe. guess i don't know when i can and should ever start believing again. guess it's time to sleep.