ah this is becoming a depressive blog all over again. i'm sorry.
speaking of sorry's, i got to stop saying them. it's such a automatic response for me to blame myself. i'm sure it's not healthy.
i hope i get better soon. i don't like waking up feeling like crap. it's as though i don't have enough blood running through me or something of that sort. i can hardly stand for a few moments without being unstable. when i'm lying down, i feel like i'm floating. slightly, and not in a good way. my head does not feel right. i feel faint. my stomach does not feel right. i feel nauseous.
am i slowly breaking down one body part by one body part?
it sure feels like it.
this physical weakness is certainly not helping my emotional weakness.
i need to get better. this is not a good place for me.
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