I'm sorry.

It frightens me that I feel like I can't tell him everything.
Afraid that he'll change his mind about me.

It frightens me that I'll never be the same.

I don't know how to give it my all.
And when i see myself getting there, I stop.

It doesn't always work out for me.
I go there at times, blame this silly little heart of mine.

But when I do, I realize that it's not the same.
I don't know how to be carefree.
I don't know how to trust fully.
I don't know how to give without expecting anything in return.
I guess what i get in return now helps keeps me at ease.

I'm not the same.
I'm not okay.
I don't know anymore.

It's not fair.