i'm the type of person who has very strong feelings about certain things and expects people to act accordingly. i expect people to care and to make the effort for their family and friends. but the thing is, these people think differently. they have different priorities, i guess. i can understand that, most of the time. but sometimes, i can't run from thinking that they are just plain selfish.

ironically, i'm also the type of person who tries not to judge people and the things they do. with an open mind, i listen, learn, and try to understand. i try to get to know people first before passing my verdict.. you know, that sort of stuff. and i try not to be too critical of people. because well, i'm not perfect. oh boy i'm far, far from perfect. so i don't expect people to be perfect either.

we all happen to live surrounded by so much judgement that it hinders so many possible friendships. negative preconceptions that lead to cold shoulders instead of warm hugs. that's such a sad thing and it gives birth to much loneliness in the world.

but we're all human. we can't really escape from prior impressions and gossip, can we? and sometimes these preconceptions turn out to be true and opening our hearts would only leave us exposed. then comes the time when we get hurt. we'll end up telling ourselves that we should've listened to that voice inside in the first place.

there's so many things on my mind these days. i ponder and i ponder again. life, love, happiness and the fragility of it all. more to say but i'm tired.

well to sum it up, i guess i'm just a really confused chick

who maybe, probably, thinks too much.